11th of the Month

Dahil bored ako, nagkalkal ako ng "baul of drafts". Nakita ko to and I think it's about time para ipublish na to. matagal-tagal ka na din nakatago, since 11 August 2010,16:21. haha!

naiiyak pa din ako habang binabasa ko yung message mo tess.

utang na loob, iwanan mo na ang eLBi. tapusin mo na ang SP mo para naman mapanood ka na namin magmartsa habang nakasablay (at hindi naka-corps attire) :P

P.S. Don't worry, tandang tanda ko pa din yung feb fair moment na yun, February 11, 2010. How can I forget that date? Durog na durog kaya ang puso ko nung nagkasalubong tayo noon, kunwari lang hindi, kunwari lang "strong" ako. HAHAHA! :p I MISS YOU PITET!! :**

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It's the 11th of August. The 11th of the month. I don't see anything good about this day. Same as everyday, going home at 7am, sleeping by 8:30, waking up at around 2-3:30, then working by 10pm again. Very monotonous. What a great way to start the day, 2am, ginising kami ni manong guard dahil bawal daw matulog dun sa mga couch sa may 'study area' sa 2nd floor. ASAR KA MANONG! ANTOK NA ANTOK NA KAYA AKO. >:(


Morning, after shift. I was walking alone along Commonwealth ave, OT si housemate, may practice ng cheering si roommate.


Part of my daily routine: checking facebook while walking. After checking out stuff, I've noticed that someone sent me a personal msg. This one is really unexpected. Unexpected in the sense that, HINDI KO INEEXPECT KAHIT YUNG SENDER. :P

I've read it and after a minute or two, I felt like crying. Imagine a girl walking along the main road, crying. Mukhang ewan. Haha. Buti na lang nacontrol ko kahit pano ung luha ko. :)
 
I was really touched. She made me feel that I'm loved, that I AM VALUED.

I'll paste her message here.. Forgive me Tess :P

"bwl mgreact!!!

nag-internet ako to write this msg...pcnxa n s grammar,gusto ko mag-english eh, bkt b!!!...

i can still remember that specific moment last feb fair.

those were the times that i thought i'm just going to burst for i can't contain my emotions any longer. i can't express myself to those people. why bother when i knew so well that wouldn't understand??


since i'm 'the great pretender',,,i act so great, keep on pretending that everything was just fine, as if there's nothing wrong, as if i'm not enduring anything, as if i'm enjoying the fair.


i'm on my way to the men's dorm when i saw this skinny girl and the moment i came close to her, i hugged her tight and cried on her. ( well, not on her shoulders kasi d ko abot)...

i just cried and cried without saying even a single word....she hugged me back and that moment i realized how stupid i am to think that nobody cares for me because undeniably this girl do cares a lot. i was unaware that time that she herself had her own burdens too coz i was so hurt to the point that i didn't sense how she really feel.


and now nasasaktan n nmn ako and i'm crying....i'm crying alone because nobody's there for me to cry on...because she's not her.


miss you fatima...miss you a lot...


bago p ko magmukhang tanga dito sa computer shop tatapusin ko na to.... buti n lng me harang dito sa dana's...

peste, naiwan ko p panyo ko, wala akong pampahid...."