Midlife what?

So I've noticed that my usual self is not the usual self that I am used to. I've been thinking too much and too far from the present scenario.

until I bumped off with this list...

✅ Looking into the mirror and you no longer recognize yourself

⁉️ Desiring to quit a good job.

✅ Unexplained bouts of depression when doing tasks that used to make you happy.

✅ Change of habits. Activities which used to bring pleasure now are boring. Unable to complete or concentrate on tasks which used to be easy.

✅ It feels good to get hurt.

✅ Wanting to run away from everything.

✅ A desire to get into physical shape.

✅ Irritability or unexpected anger.

✅ A desire to surround yourself with different settings.

✅ Desiring a simple life.

✅ Keep re-asking yourself: “Where am I going with my life?

 And it goes on and on and on..

Then I wondered, "when will it be popped out? Somebody let me know please!"

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Okay. I am running out of ideas now. I just need a venting space for this. 😔😌😐😕😯😑

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By the way, dreams, they suck! Oh please subconscious mind, stop messing around..